*pat on the back*
I wish you well. I'm happy.
I wish you well. I'm happy.
discover me discovering you
29 July 2008 @ 12:00 pm
I will give myself a pat on the back.
When I've finally learned to let it all go.
You always do this to me and I should resent you for that.
But I don't.
When I've finally learned to let it all go.
You always do this to me and I should resent you for that.
But I don't.
28 July 2008 @ 04:05 pm
i really don't want to be in a position to choose.
because i don't want to lose what i've worked so hard for.
you're confusing me by asking.
i'm scared i might say yes.
i'm scared i'm even considering this.
but i'm also scared that if i say no,
we'll never know.
and we'll spend the rest of our lives wondering.
because i don't want to lose what i've worked so hard for.
you're confusing me by asking.
i'm scared i might say yes.
i'm scared i'm even considering this.
but i'm also scared that if i say no,
we'll never know.
and we'll spend the rest of our lives wondering.
Current Mood: 
contemplative
contemplative23 July 2008 @ 03:13 pm
1. I see you everyday. Sometimes I like you, sometimes I don't.
I don't like you at all today.
2. I see you every now and then. I visit your shop and buy stuff I don't really need.
Because you look like him a lot.
3. I can't believe I'm not seeing you tomorrow.
I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry.
4. I wish you looked better. It would make everything easier for you.
5. I look at you and I like what I see. You've got a proper schoolboy charm.
And I've got a proper schoolgirl crush.
I don't like you at all today.
2. I see you every now and then. I visit your shop and buy stuff I don't really need.
Because you look like him a lot.
3. I can't believe I'm not seeing you tomorrow.
I'm not sure whether to laugh or cry.
4. I wish you looked better. It would make everything easier for you.
5. I look at you and I like what I see. You've got a proper schoolboy charm.
And I've got a proper schoolgirl crush.
Current Mood: 
calm
calmCurrent Music: BBC News 24
22 July 2008 @ 02:31 pm
is probably worse than knowing.
but i don't want to know
because when i knew you
it wasn't really great.
but i don't want to know
because when i knew you
it wasn't really great.
08 April 2008 @ 05:11 pm
They'll always be there.
Frozen in memory.
But I don't suppose anyone can go back.
Such a shame.
Frozen in memory.
But I don't suppose anyone can go back.
Such a shame.
18 February 2008 @ 11:29 am
i try to get you out of my head.
but i can't stop singing our song.
i want this to end.
but i know it won't until we sit down and talk about it.
next time, don't be scared.
but i can't stop singing our song.
i want this to end.
but i know it won't until we sit down and talk about it.
next time, don't be scared.
Current Location: Kysen PR Offices
Current Music: 23 - Jimmy Eat World
06 December 2007 @ 12:36 pm
Forgive me for being a friend to my friend.
I thought that was what I was supposed to do.
I thought that was what I was supposed to do.
09 November 2007 @ 01:51 pm
It's true you know, you're the best thing that could've happened to me. But you raise me to a new level of anxiety. You say things and I easily believe them, because I've known you for so long. I've known you well enough to know you mean them. But oh how you frustrate me.
What do you do with a love that wasn't given a chance to grow?
What do you do with a love that wasn't given a chance to grow?
Current Mood: 
blank
blankCurrent Music: Dave Matthews Band - Jimi Thing
28 October 2007 @ 10:42 am
Starting to think that wrong decisions were made a little too soon.
I can't tell for now but it seems like we're growing apart.
I can't tell for now but it seems like we're growing apart.
Current Mood: contemplative
contemplative25 August 2007 @ 01:44 am
I thought I'd feel better when the plane's landed. I thought that it would feel fantabulous to be back. It does, really. I've missed my family and my friends and I can't wait to finally hook up with them. I'm happy, yes. But there's a huge void in my heart. And it's that kind of void brought about not by just one person... or a place that might, God forbid, dissolve in distant memory.
In relevance, one year may have been just a hellish blur. In reality, it's been a culture, a home, a clique, an experience that I have learned to love.
There's nothing I want more than to go back.
In relevance, one year may have been just a hellish blur. In reality, it's been a culture, a home, a clique, an experience that I have learned to love.
There's nothing I want more than to go back.
Current Mood: 
recumbent
recumbentCurrent Music: The Look - Ryan Tedder
19 July 2007 @ 02:38 pm
So, um...
If you really meant what you said
Like, that thing you um, said a while ago?
Yeah, well.
I think I'd be super happy if you did.
Because I feel the same, too.
If you really meant what you said
Like, that thing you um, said a while ago?
Yeah, well.
I think I'd be super happy if you did.
Because I feel the same, too.
26 May 2007 @ 09:22 am
Q: Do you feel productive when we're kissing?
No. I don't feel productive. I just feel.
No. I don't feel productive. I just feel.
Current Location: Vicarage Road
Current Music: Tamia - So Into You
23 May 2007 @ 08:15 pm
"Can I be explicit?
I really want to kiss you but I can't find the right moment."
VALENCIA, B. 2007. Digging a ditch with your own shovel. The Life of Bryan. 2nd ed. Brighton: Valencia Productions.
I really want to kiss you but I can't find the right moment."
VALENCIA, B. 2007. Digging a ditch with your own shovel. The Life of Bryan. 2nd ed. Brighton: Valencia Productions.
Current Location: Vicarage Road
Current Mood: 
amused
amusedCurrent Music: 3 brit boys yappin about summer ball tickets
23 April 2007 @ 09:16 pm
If I am totally accountable for the feeling you have, then I suppose I'd rather stay away because I just don't feel the same. I think I can hold them accountable for the uncertainty that might actually amount to nothing. I'm not that worried but, having said that, I don't want to be a part of it. Not because I'm not yet ready... but because it doesn't fit the way it should.
The irony supplies us with one true thing - that this may be the beginning of something wonderful.
The irony supplies us with one true thing - that this may be the beginning of something wonderful.
17 April 2007 @ 02:21 pm
All these years, I thought it was him. But lately I find myself wondering if you are actually my "one who got away". Only in this case, I think I was the one who gave up.
Yeah. Been thinking about you.
i'm so good at forgetting
i quit every game i play
i quit every game i play
Yeah. Been thinking about you.
23 March 2007 @ 08:37 pm
it's not my fault
if push the
right buttons.
i say that in the
same sense
as i get goosepumps
when you
smile.
did you just smile
my way?
non-verbal communication
is so much better.
don't you think so?
if push the
right buttons.
i say that in the
same sense
as i get goosepumps
when you
smile.
did you just smile
my way?
non-verbal communication
is so much better.
don't you think so?
06 March 2007 @ 07:02 pm
but i love the way he calls me beautiful.